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i wonder if this is how you felt
sitting at the table
gasping for breath
your whole family was there
but that didn't help your struggle for air
i wonder if this is how you felt
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take enufff
04:02
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i heard one kiss from you could cure all disease
but you only ever made me want to sleep
i thought that you could help me to create
make something worthwhile from my broken brain
i thought that i was fucked up
i guess i just took way too much
now everyday is so rough
i guess i didn't take enough
now i stare at my phone until my eyes start to bleed
call it what you want but it looks pretty sad to me
just want to hear a song that melts my fucking brain
and for one sweet second dissipates the pain
i thought about it on the long drive home
"i probably should have brought some weed"
embedded deeply into my routine
such unproductive thoughts as these
i didn't take enough to get me high
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goes without sayin'
04:15
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this should go without saying but i guess i'm gonna say it again
if you want to get to know me you're gonna wind up lonely, friend
i'll start dropping out of life and i'll stop answering your calls
i'll be too busy trippin' over shoelaces in the hall until i fall
i hope i never fall
if i stay inside forever what are they gonna do?
if i really work my angle maybe they'll fall for the excuse
feed em some bullshit about how "i got so much to do today"
when the truth is i just never wanted to have to talk again
never again
it never ends
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broken glass
02:32
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i'm stepping over broken glass on the way to your house
and staring out at all the trash left on dying lawns
i can't believe i'm gonna live here for another year
i'm carrying the cinder blocks atop my back
strap the weights to my ankles, give it all i have
i'll never make it to the top of this hill without a boulder to keep me pushing
but im gonna have to face you
as soon as i walk in through that door
god damn it, i can't stand it, i gotta face you
and pretend like i meant any of the shit i said before
i guess i'll have to add your name to the list of people i'm afraid to cross paths with
i never started to feel confused until you told me that's how you were feeling
2 hours into a 6 hour shift
already burnt through all of my small talk topics
drawing vaguely phallic symbols in the margins of my notebooks and daydreaming about you
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with all my heart
03:01
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hate the way that i act when i think someone is watching
i hate myself with all my heart
does awkward silence follow me wherever i go?
or is it like that for everyone?
well god damn i sure hope so
cuz if its not then i am all alone
cuz if its not then i don't know my role
just take me and tear me apart
just take me and tear me apart
i've felt it ever since the start
i hate myself with all my heart
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caps lock
01:23
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i wrote a poem with caps lock on
but when i tried to put it in a song
my microphone began to clip
so now i only sing in whispers
i took it as a sign that it's time for me to shut up
i've reached my monthly limit of crying out for help
i wanted to get out of the house
and so i did, sometimes things work out
but when i inevitably rolled up at your place i turned around
cursed all this wasted distance
now i pray i don't get hit by oncoming traffic
as i pedal down the bike lane on my way to the show
but it still kills me everytime
your words in blue burning my eyes
remind just how far apart that we have grown
and just how big a fuck up i've become
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admit defeat
02:35
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let's watch a movie in the daytime
pull down the shades and admit defeat today
because i'm worn out and stuck to my bed like i'm coated in Big League Chew
let's order sushi, carry it out
i'll make a pot of coffee
and i'll drink so much that i won't even dream of sleeping
i'm so sick of forcing myself to do things that i don't want to do
just because i feel like i have to based on some strangers view
it's exhausting trying to find a new routine
when there's nothing wrong with what comes naturally to me
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